LIFE IS SUPPOSED
TO BE A JOKE
'Where are you?'
I must have touched a nerve...
I'm again alone!
My eyes turn and turn all around...
About midnight
Trembling my soul snorts:
"Ar'you only a role player...?!"
A whispers from a dark corner:
"Be quiet!!!"
"That's O.K-! That's O.K.!"
My eyes are rolling all around!
From the trembling walls
take form a voice:
"A role player isn't supposed to be
on his/her right mind"
I
feel cold...
I see:
You're howling like a beast
far away
in a corner...
in front of your world...
your GLOBE!!!
I kneel
'Where
are you?'
Your voice in my wombs...
like an echo
scrapes the rust off the surface of my senses:
'Life make you sound like an heorin
in technotrillers'
Your words are scracthing my back.
'Where I'm going?'
I was bored last night...
I couldn't sleep...
do to my heart...
broken up in pieces...
inflamed...
'Where I'm going?'
A blade in the sacrum.
Your obscure voice is still whispering:
"Oh!
Be careful my loved one...
Virtue is flowing upon tragedy
pushing Compassion to enter Sorrow'
domain."
"Where I'm going?'
I
Empathic to love...
I
May be
I'm walking in the Shadowland
to find Euridice...
to save my love forever!!!"
Your voice shouts in my heart:
"May
be
you can help me?!!!"
I breath
My eyes are spying all around
I sing
With a nature of Martyr
I sing
while I feel pushed in an Overoll World.
Silence!
Applauses!
I see!
That's you!!!
You are laughing and applauding
my verbal striptease...
Than you say with your warmest voice:
"Ehi?!
Do you believe that the game may lack me?"
"Who???"
My eyes are crying all around
While my body is dancing
in the metaplot of the game
as
a whole...
"As a whole?!"
You ask me with a smile...
than you follow ironicly...
"With your soul still prisoner
in the blood
of the captain of your heart?"
I'm dancing on the waters
in which my man's spirit
has loved me
for the first time...
At the crack of dawn!!!
My man's spirit...
Hop!!!
TUM!!!TUM!!!TUM!!!
I'm dancing
still softly confuse
by the
materialization of the dream...
TUM!!!TUM!!!TUM!!!
You burst out smiling:
"While your shadow is dancing
on the screen
of my eternal memories
without any real energy
in trance
under a collection of Storyarcs
designed by
the Game's Architect."
I feel scared.
I know I must try
to impose an overarching plot
on the virtual ambient in which I move...
But I feel scared.
I feel trembling.
Like a baby.
I know I can try
to destroy any metaplot.
"Really I can try to do that?"
I'm walking in a deserted garden.
Statues without head and darkness.
You appear at my side
and caressing my shoulders
say:
'Look!!!
May be this is the place
where
by playing
at last
our love's dream
we can sketc
what our totem picture looks like!!!"
I kneel.
I cry.
"Oh, yes!
But what for?!
What for if still I feel so alone!?"
My last tear falls down
in the same time
in the same space
in which
your last tear is falling down...!
I rise my eyes
and I sink in your deep dark water holes...
You smile:
Never I left you alone...
The whole has happened
while I was softly kissing you,...
swethie..."
You kiss me gently...caressing my head...
A warm wind from nowhere!!!
You take my body in your arms...
by kissing my breast you whisper:
"I'm
ready...
let's go to bed, my twin soul!!!"
FIREWORKS!!!
FOREVER!!
Words-Images by Maria Luisa Abbate
